I've been having a crap morning.
I hate talking on the phone and I've been totally
freaking out over having to make a phone call
(but I did it after all) to speak about my referral
to the mental health unit because of my current
depression and my social phobia that just getting
worse and worse.
3 out of the 4 people I spoke to had accents that
I could hardly understand but I managed to get
that they are going to call me on Monday for an
evaluation over the phone. (?!?!)
The second thing was a rather obnoxious email
from my dad.
I've been trying to reach him for a month and I've
been quite desperate since we got back since I'm
in a bit of a pickle, all I get in return is "I'm not by
the computer everyday since my wife is having her
vacation now and today we're off to Ullared!"
(People only go to Ullared to buy cheap crap they
really don't need.)
Thanks a lot!
After crying out of frustration and a lot of hugs from
my man I managed to get myself together and plan
Because it's not all bad...
* Me and my man has been together for five and
a half year today.
* Mr. Postman came and turned my frown upside
down. The 1950's swimsuit/playsuit I won on eBay
the day before yesterday arrived and it's so cute!
The pattern looks like patchwork, a little like Sally
from Nightmare Before Christmas gone 50's pinup.
* After breakfast my man said we should make sure
we don't lose our tans so we went to the sunbed,
while I was waiting for him I went to my favorite
charity shop to have a little scout.
There it was - a coral Pyrex mixing bowl!
* I found something on Etsy that I've been wanting
for years and it had a quite reasonable price tag
so I asked my man if he could buy it for me for my
birthday and he was really surprised that I didn't
want anything else or something more expensive. :P
I've been struggling with depression since I was 10-11
years old and it's only in recent years I'm actually trying
to see things a bit more colorful, that it's not all black and
white and I always keep that in mind even if everything is
shit, if I didn't I wouldn't be here by now.